Day Forty-Three


I must be getting used to this. I'm slacking. 

I skipped one day and another day - the next day.... I have to remind myself why I am doing it and think why I am not doing it. I am doing this because 1) I want to keep a logbook of my year-long experiment, 2) I want to practice writing and 3) I want to complete a project that I do everyday. I hear my voice saying that I don't have much interesting things to say so I'm not entertaining or I sound boring but that should not matter. That is not the goal of this logbook project.  I woke up this morning and thought after 40 days, I'm getting comfortable and loosing the urgency.

At the same time there are a few things I can think of that make it easier to continue with a project: 1) find a way to get feedbacks: hearing from other people helps sticking to it when it does not seem important or meaningful because when others are involved, it does not depend on what I am thinking, which likes to drift. 2) Make myself believe that this is what I am - so for this project I am just going to believe and decide I am a log keeper.

At the end I found writing fun. I don't know what I would say before the first sentence and I get to be surprised by what came out in a 3" block of texts.